life is never the same again. as i thought i was feeling better after last night talking to weixian, im still feeling terrible. its just never the same again. when ever a love song comes on my winamp, i cant help but think of you. sometimes they make me cry out really bad. crying is a sign of weekness, but i really couldnt help it. getting of of love is not a big thing at all, i didnt really cried out that bad when my grandmother passed away june this year. am i just crying for the sake of crying? when i wept i have an urge to look at myself in the mirror, and inside i see myself with my eyes puffy and red, eyes damp and tears flowing down my cheek.
life is never the same again. sometimes i felt that if i never had sent you that email, never confront you about it, we might still be *together* now. maybe we wun talk much, and not meeting each other. but at least i'll still get to send you a sms every so often.
im just not used to it.
ever since i get to know you after the foc camp, even before i started liking you, there isnt a day where we didnt talk at all. 4 months, we were communicating everyday. just as i felt that i should leave my hands off my hp last night, i couldnt help but sms you, telling you how terrible i felt. 'dont think about it much, cocentrate on your studies first, take care' was all that you said.
im just not used to being alone and lonely like this. when you left me, i felt that im all alone in this world. i started looking around for my friends to talk to, but i felt that all they can do is to console me and give me some of their advice. do they really know how i feel?
when you first broke the news to me a couple of nights ago, i was crying as i was typing on the keyboard. it felt like a dream. sometimes i just hope that i'll just wake up from it one day, and we could still be together, walking around town, holding hands, in love.
that night i couldnt get to sleep. i went on and off the computer, watching you on msn till you got offline around 2am. im not sure if you felt the same about it. i read your blog, there seems to be nothing about how you felt about it. 'i told him whatever i wanted to say' was which you wrote.
everytime i decided to go to bed, i'll end up crying again. it hurts me to know that we are not together anymore. i'll think of the days we spent our lives today, from our first date we went to jurong point before your tuition, when i proposed to you at the airport, going to the beach, the first time i bought you flowers, climbing bukit timah hill together...
i could still remember how happy you were when i first bought you a pink rose. we were so in love. even if it was a couple of seconds to meet up in between our lectures, its still as satisfying.
perhaps we started out too fast, just like what you said. but isnt it like this when relationship starts?
that time, i went to my laptop every so often, hoping to see you online. 'kit, i didnt mean what i said to you just now'. you never got online. perhaps you are sleeping real well after you got everything off your chest. how do you really feel may? do you even feel a bit about it? i finally doze off at 5 and woke up at 7 ready for school.
the trip to school is just different, everything is different. do you still remember that we used to message each other everyday on our way to school, without fail? life is just so fucked up now. everything changed. the day in school got off quickly, i just couldnt wait to get home and lock myself up in my room.
i cried again that night. why must this happen to us? why? we should be a loving couple. the reason for it isnt because of a third party. we never even quarreled once. not even once. i suppose couples quarrel and improve their relationship? we never did. everything is just so smooth sailing. you said its too smooth.
is this how love is suppose to be? i donno. this is the first time im in love, and i just couldnt believe it ended so fast and so suddenly. i acutally felt happy last night, all in my mind i was thinking that one day we will patch up. we will be together after the exams, you're probably just stressed out by the exams. i went to sleep.
i woke up at 6 this morning. i felt alone again. i couldnt get back to sleep again. i got off the bed and tried to get my mind of you. i went to clean my bike. i rode 4 main climbs of faber and 21 inner loops. i climbed a total of 1060m that night. and got home only to lose a girlfriend. but seriously, i knew it will happen one day. its just not the same. when we didnt talk, when you came up with excuses when i asked you out, i knew something was wrong. i thought its because you're having moodswings, and you will recover soon. you never did.
life to me is simple. you and riding. somehow i felt you're far more important about my bike. its love that keeps everything going. maybe i should go for a ride today, to vent my frustration on the road. i thought of riding down to school this morning, perhaps wait for you at the bus stop at school. but i donno what to say if we were to come face to face. maybe we should really keep a distance till the exams are over.
are you happy now?
if you are happy, i'll be happy too. i felt really empty. are we going to patch up after the exams? or the 2 weeks excuse is just to make it less painful for me? i really miss you now. i miss your smile, i miss your eyes, i miss your voice, i miss your everything. why must this happen? isnt it just abit too soon?
life will never be the same again. i just had a beer just now. it felt pretty good. remember that time during our pyro outing, you came across the road to the bus stop just to let me have a taste of that alcoholic drink. it felt good. i knew you liked me. you are the first to have feelings for me. and i noticed that from the frequent smses and online chats we had.
it felt nice to caress your arm at the airport. i knew i had to propose to you at that moment. its now or never. i never wish not to do thing i'll regret later. i need to let you know how i feel. who knows? if i didnt tell you that that day, i might get knocked by a car on the roads one day on my bike, and i'll die without you knowing that i love you.
i can never face up to reality. i just felt like escaping from it. let me wake up one day and know that you're still with me. we are bonded together. we were together for 2 months, 8 weeks. it just felt pretty short. it isnt a fling is it? we are truly in love with each other. remember how everybody felt so lucky for us when were together?
had a chat with greg online just now. im glad he's on mc and got booked out. i really needed his help. i talked to many people for the past couple of days. they given me advice i really needed. but im sure none of them understand how i felt. maybe if we will never be toegher again, a few months down to road when my one of pals got out of love, i'll tell him to forget about his gf.
but how can i really forget about you?
my life is in a mess now. exams are just round the corner. my life is pretty fuck up now. let me get another beer and sleep the day away...
life is never the same again. sometimes i felt that if i never had sent you that email, never confront you about it, we might still be *together* now. maybe we wun talk much, and not meeting each other. but at least i'll still get to send you a sms every so often.
im just not used to it.
ever since i get to know you after the foc camp, even before i started liking you, there isnt a day where we didnt talk at all. 4 months, we were communicating everyday. just as i felt that i should leave my hands off my hp last night, i couldnt help but sms you, telling you how terrible i felt. 'dont think about it much, cocentrate on your studies first, take care' was all that you said.
im just not used to being alone and lonely like this. when you left me, i felt that im all alone in this world. i started looking around for my friends to talk to, but i felt that all they can do is to console me and give me some of their advice. do they really know how i feel?
when you first broke the news to me a couple of nights ago, i was crying as i was typing on the keyboard. it felt like a dream. sometimes i just hope that i'll just wake up from it one day, and we could still be together, walking around town, holding hands, in love.
that night i couldnt get to sleep. i went on and off the computer, watching you on msn till you got offline around 2am. im not sure if you felt the same about it. i read your blog, there seems to be nothing about how you felt about it. 'i told him whatever i wanted to say' was which you wrote.
everytime i decided to go to bed, i'll end up crying again. it hurts me to know that we are not together anymore. i'll think of the days we spent our lives today, from our first date we went to jurong point before your tuition, when i proposed to you at the airport, going to the beach, the first time i bought you flowers, climbing bukit timah hill together...
i could still remember how happy you were when i first bought you a pink rose. we were so in love. even if it was a couple of seconds to meet up in between our lectures, its still as satisfying.
perhaps we started out too fast, just like what you said. but isnt it like this when relationship starts?
that time, i went to my laptop every so often, hoping to see you online. 'kit, i didnt mean what i said to you just now'. you never got online. perhaps you are sleeping real well after you got everything off your chest. how do you really feel may? do you even feel a bit about it? i finally doze off at 5 and woke up at 7 ready for school.
the trip to school is just different, everything is different. do you still remember that we used to message each other everyday on our way to school, without fail? life is just so fucked up now. everything changed. the day in school got off quickly, i just couldnt wait to get home and lock myself up in my room.
i cried again that night. why must this happen to us? why? we should be a loving couple. the reason for it isnt because of a third party. we never even quarreled once. not even once. i suppose couples quarrel and improve their relationship? we never did. everything is just so smooth sailing. you said its too smooth.
is this how love is suppose to be? i donno. this is the first time im in love, and i just couldnt believe it ended so fast and so suddenly. i acutally felt happy last night, all in my mind i was thinking that one day we will patch up. we will be together after the exams, you're probably just stressed out by the exams. i went to sleep.
i woke up at 6 this morning. i felt alone again. i couldnt get back to sleep again. i got off the bed and tried to get my mind of you. i went to clean my bike. i rode 4 main climbs of faber and 21 inner loops. i climbed a total of 1060m that night. and got home only to lose a girlfriend. but seriously, i knew it will happen one day. its just not the same. when we didnt talk, when you came up with excuses when i asked you out, i knew something was wrong. i thought its because you're having moodswings, and you will recover soon. you never did.
life to me is simple. you and riding. somehow i felt you're far more important about my bike. its love that keeps everything going. maybe i should go for a ride today, to vent my frustration on the road. i thought of riding down to school this morning, perhaps wait for you at the bus stop at school. but i donno what to say if we were to come face to face. maybe we should really keep a distance till the exams are over.
are you happy now?
if you are happy, i'll be happy too. i felt really empty. are we going to patch up after the exams? or the 2 weeks excuse is just to make it less painful for me? i really miss you now. i miss your smile, i miss your eyes, i miss your voice, i miss your everything. why must this happen? isnt it just abit too soon?
life will never be the same again. i just had a beer just now. it felt pretty good. remember that time during our pyro outing, you came across the road to the bus stop just to let me have a taste of that alcoholic drink. it felt good. i knew you liked me. you are the first to have feelings for me. and i noticed that from the frequent smses and online chats we had.
it felt nice to caress your arm at the airport. i knew i had to propose to you at that moment. its now or never. i never wish not to do thing i'll regret later. i need to let you know how i feel. who knows? if i didnt tell you that that day, i might get knocked by a car on the roads one day on my bike, and i'll die without you knowing that i love you.
i can never face up to reality. i just felt like escaping from it. let me wake up one day and know that you're still with me. we are bonded together. we were together for 2 months, 8 weeks. it just felt pretty short. it isnt a fling is it? we are truly in love with each other. remember how everybody felt so lucky for us when were together?
had a chat with greg online just now. im glad he's on mc and got booked out. i really needed his help. i talked to many people for the past couple of days. they given me advice i really needed. but im sure none of them understand how i felt. maybe if we will never be toegher again, a few months down to road when my one of pals got out of love, i'll tell him to forget about his gf.
but how can i really forget about you?
my life is in a mess now. exams are just round the corner. my life is pretty fuck up now. let me get another beer and sleep the day away...
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